“…the holy and the ordinary rubbing shoulders…” Essay and images by Justin Hamm

A full-color folk art image depicting open mouths and a church with a cross on top

Poet, photographer, and model literary citizen, Justin Hamm inspires with his offering–the third installment of a series of guest posts here at Rust Belt Girl. Thank you, Justin! His essay about speaking in tongues feels especially personal, presented as it is from a child’s perspective. It feels “close” to me, in more than one way. Justin’s essay is accompanied by his original folk art, and I have to say, I didn’t see this coming. But I absolutely love it. Here at Rust Belt Girl, we know the American Midwest is vast and multitudinous, and so are its people, their inspirations, their stories, and their art.

Because Justin is truly “Midwest Nice” and humble, he might not brag to you about his TEDxOshKosh Talk, “The American Midwest: A Story in Poems & Photographs, but I’ll do it for him. This is a good place to start, if you’re new to Justin. In his talk, he asks some of the same questions we’ve been asking at Rust Belt Girl all these years. A big one: Is “flyover country” an appropriate term for the Midwest? Justin explores that vital question through inspection of the overlooked or the avoided, including rust (holla!), thunderstorms, everyday people doing everyday things, politics, social class, and more. It’s well worth a watch-and-listen.

But first. Let’s read and discuss Justin Hamm’s…

The Wind With a Secret Shape 

I was eight maybe nine years old Wednesday nights my grandparents used to 

take me to a small Pentecostal church that sat on a grassy rise just outside of 

town it had once felt isolated tucked out in the quiet but the town had crept 

outward now it sat beside a gas station a lumberyard and a row of fast-food 

joints the holy and the ordinary rubbing shoulders the church rectangular part 

brick part white siding a white cross stretching off the roofline like an arrow 

pointing to the shifting Illinois sky inside the pews angled toward a low 

platform where the preacher shouted and a four-piece band laid down rhythm 

the cushions a deep royal blue clean saturated almost regal I remember that 

color better than my childhood bedroom the building always felt old but never 

run-down the women cleaned it like a calling while the men kept it maintained 

it smelled of floor polish and breath mints old hymnals and hairspray a past 

preserved a place where time seemed fixed in place 

I wanted to be a good boy I tried to follow the sermons caught a phrase here or 

there but mostly folded handouts into paper planes or built hymnbook 

pyramids sometimes I curled up on the back pew and drifted off lulled by the 

rhythm of scripture and song until the spirit moved when it hit the preacher 

everything changed he’d leap down the steps whirling stomping at the devil 

howling Jesus’ name until his face went red and purple sweat soaking his brow 

and then the tongues came strange breathless syllables rolling out like a chant 

that bypassed the brain entirely the holy ghost made you do things that was 

just how it worked I accepted it the way you’d accept sunrise or gravity 

and I believed too believed fully if somebody said the spirit is with us tonight 

I’d scan the sanctuary up in the corners where wall met ceiling under pews 

between swaying bodies I didn’t expect to see it exactly but I wanted to know 

where it was it filled me with something like fear but not only fear there was 

longing in it too hunger a sense that something just out of reach might solve 

everything the holy ghost like a wind with a secret shape a bird made of breath 

maybe God’s own breath moving invisibly through the room I believed it 

entered through the mouth that explained what came out the old men would 

rise in their too-large suits limping loops around the sanctuary hands raised 

speaking in tongues the women would fall stiff to the ground eyes rolled back 

mouths twitching that’s how I knew the ghost was on the move I tracked it 

sinner to sinner and sometimes it came close the person next to me would 

sway eyelids flickering syllables rising up like springwater through stone my 

chest would lift my legs would buzz my mouth would soften and open almost 

involuntarily I’d think this is it just let yourself go let it take you I opened my 

mouth and nothing came I tried again wider harder I prayed the best I knew 

how I swallowed the air like it might carry something eternal and then I waited 

  • A full-color folk art image depicting open mouths and a church with a cross on top
  • Full-color folk art depicting a boy with a green hat, crying over a red balloon
  • Full-color folk art depicting a hand reaching out and touching another person, while a cross glows in the background
  • Full-color folk art depicting angels and a person with a downcast face

Justin Hamm is the author of five poetry collections, including O Death (2024), Drinking Guinness With the Dead (2022), and The Inheritance (2019), as well as a book of photography, Midwestern. He is the founding editor of the museum of americana and the creator of Poet Baseball Cards. 


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Smaller than a child’s hand: Discover Prompts Day 6

A long-overdue lawn trimming revealed a rabbit’s nest in the yard. There are two babies that we can see. Twins, each no bigger than a child’s hand. A quick internet search revealed some interesting facts: that baby rabbits need only to nurse a couple times a day, and do so very quickly (unlike the seemingly endless nursing sessions I experienced with my own twins). But then, it’s “quick as a bunny,” not “quick as a baby.”

It was a joy to see the excitement on my more tender-hearted boy’s face at his discovery. While the boys left them alone–wild rabbits are not pets–they did name them: Peter and Bugs. Ordinarily, I wouldn’t worry that these rabbits might not make it. Death’s natural, and all that. Only, now I do worry–about that and everything else. I also worry I might not make it through this year without securing a real pet for my boys, something to hold and care for. I’ve suggested a domesticated rabbit; the boys are talking about a dog, again.

I’m chronicling my days of COVID-19-induced isolation here at the blog with the help of WordPress Discover . This post was in response to Discover Prompt Day 6: Hands. Won’t you join in?

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“Where are we sending them? Where are they going?” A photo re-blog from A Prayer Like Gravity

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Image from A Prayer Like Gravity

These photos from A Prayer Like Gravity stirred me nearly to tears:

Where are we sending them? Where are they going?

I suppose there’s always been a certain amount of fear around kids at school. There’s the letting go, the separation from family and home. For me, this means a willful disentanglement of my heart from my kids’, as I drop them off at school every day. There’s no drama, no tears–it’s a wonderful school–but I do have to tamp down my mother love, or else I’d never let them go.

Author Elizabeth Stone said:

Making the decision to have a child…is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body.

She was right. So my little hearts leave my sight to beat and grow, and I have to remind myself it’s been eight years since we were skin to skin in the hospital at their birth. They are in their own skins now; they don’t need my mother heat like that.

They are strong. I tell myself this when they come home telling me–so nonchalantly–about lock down drills.

I don’t remember lock down drills in elementary school. I remember tornado drills, my knees pressed against the painted cement block walls of the hallway outside our classroom, my body curled like a potato bug, one in a long line of kids, our hands over the napes of our necks. I remember the Space Shuttle Challenger Disaster in fifth grade; when I returned home from school my mom was crying while folding laundry in the basement.

I wonder if my kids will associate school with fear or if, instead, they’ll think of my hand taking theirs and squeezing it before they tumble out of the car each morning, looking like mini sherpas with their packs and bags. I hope that’s all the burden they’ll ever have to carry.

Thanks to A Prayer Like Gravity for these photos:

via Where are we sending them? Where are they going?